I need someone who can hear everything I want to tell and even lend his/her shoulder for me :( I miss someone cause he used to hear my stories all over again . Try to cover my pains and tell jokes so I can laugh . But now ? Hm , I miss the way he said he love me . i want to hear it again and again . I miss his voice like a lot and no one know that . Life must go on right ? So I try to cover my pains and shows that I'm just okay . No one know my paints hurt like what . I try to move on , forget the pass . But You know right ? I'll always try and still trying but I just can't . Something just said no you can't . But , I extremely in pains and I'm tired of this . Crying all day long , wondering , missing , hurting , but I hide it all inside of my heart . I'm just a human . I know I won't live more longer , life just once . I wish I know the reasons why , so I can smile again and again . But the pains seems not going to be over  . All I want is to put all this paints away so that I can smile . Hmm ,