No one know how I feel . I feel so bad and I feel such a stupid person . I'm lie to myself to everyone , trying to make myself and them trust tht everything just gonna be okay . But no one know how it feels . Wearing a fake smile everywhere . I just want my old life , Can I ? Ainie, Things happens for reasons and I redha . But , I just want to have my old life . I miss the time I spent my time with my girls all day longs , laughing and joking . I miss that moments , can we have it again and again ? Thanks to some of my friends who help me a lot . thanks guys , I loveyouguysomuchiemuchie, XX ♥♥